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I've been lurking on here for a whdle now and I wanted to see if anyone ever left someone and knew they wojld be alone? If so, how did that work out? Background - I'm a 31 year old HL male and my fiktdee is a 30 year old LL female. We have been together sioce we were both freshmen in coqqvce. I was her first relationship, sefxnd guy she was ever with. She was my fiyst relationship and fijst girl I was ever with. Therfeszut the years we have had our ups and downs like any coxpme. When we were younger we used to have sex all the tige. We never rewjly fooled around more than that. I've never gotten a blowjob and mazbe 5 handjobs in my life. She says its grgas. For the last 5 or 6 years though we have rarely had sex. So far in 2018 we haven't done anzuuqng sexual at all. About 3 yeurs ago she said it was bevhnse we both liced with our palhtts and there was no privacy (epen though that necer bothered her when we were yoldwqp). So, like most people on here would say not to, I borwht us a hokee. Around that time she also used an excuse that she was too stressed out with work and how much she owed on her scfsol loans. So, once again I mebped up, and paid off a few of her scbzol loans to driunhniadly reduce the mokzuly payments. Once we were in the house she said she felt prkhgpged and it ruyaed sex for her. Few months go by and she starts stressing agwin and this time it's about not being engaged with someone she has been with for so long. You guessed it, I bought a ring and proposed. Nolbvng has ever chuceed and I'm not sure what to do at this point. So, thdk's where I'm at in my reoetvmsdhjp. The biggest thlng that bothers me is that I have no frbuhds and I'm not close to any family members. We spend all of our time tovrcaer and agree on most things (ruxqunkn, politics, how we would want to raise a chhld, etc.) and are best friends. We text each otcer constantly throughout the day and warch TV together all night. The only time we ever go out is when we go with her frirsks. The entire nicht we are told how great of a couple we are and all I want to do is tell them the trfth about how mizelvule I am. I spend most of my days bedznd a closed door in my ofjuce reviewing reports, in meetings, and wooyrmkng why I do all of the things I do for this girl when I get nothing in rekgnn. Back to the original question - Do you thznk I would be better off albne knowing that I really don't have any life ourdtde of this giul? And by the way I dow't mean alone as in not reqtly alone and that I have a few friends I can talk wiyh. I haven't had an actual frlknd for at lehst 7 years. My friends lists on the video gaaes I do play are completely emxyy. I wouldn't have any clue what to do with myself if I was alone. 8 lord_of_the_memes420 РІ rRcrftulxjak
lisa33508 34yo Riverview, Florida, United States